So I'm in my room and in this bed after they've poked and prodded me horribly. But uh.. then someone gave me this journal thing? Online.. something or other.

Can't say I've been online much.

Anyone out there?

Going to Scotland with Mindy.

I don't think I'm gonna come back.

Ahh - nostalgia. I was given these pictures today, so I made icons out of them. Thank you, Locke. It means alot.

I have dinner with dad tonight. But I'm done with it. No more dinners. I'll be back around 10 or something.. uh not that you have to wait up or anything. Christ.

( Clyde )

I wanna know what play we're doing next. I just wanna do something normal for the love of god.

Fa la la. Blonde. Yep. It's weird seeing me without hair color but .. I think I like it.

( Keffy )

( Locke )

( Some test thing. Imagine how accurate this is )

( Mecia )

On the road again.

Argh two of everything.

Hurts. Can't keep my eyes open. Just one tiny nap and then I'll feel much better.

I just

What the


fuckin.. knew that fire extinguisher would come in handy.


now sleep

Lex - thanks for the place to stay and everything but I think it was time I was back on my own again.

I'm headed back to my mom's so if anyone needs me, I'll be there.

Alright, I guess for some reason I gotta make myself clear again. Apparently, people think I'm gonna go jump off a cliff or something. I'm not gonna go jump off a cliff. I'm not gonna hang myself. I'm not gonna slit my wrists. I'm not gonna shoot myself. I'm not gonna stick my head in an oven.

I'm not even gonna hurt myself.

And for everyone who thinks that my boyfriend is shitty to me, you're wrong. I know I say things, and I don't mean them.

I take responsibility for my own actions. All of these people having all this concern for me is just new. And I'm bad at it, I always have been. I've always held myself together. No one's fucking ever held me together, and they won't now. I don't need to be held together. I'm not a doll. I'm not coming apart at the seams. I don't know why people won't believe that I am.

I have not changed. Not since from before. People think that I have? But I haven't. So I remember things that my Uncle did to me. I can't change that. Can't do anything about it. So there's nothing to think about. Nothing to do. I am still me. I will always be me, whether my name is Terra or Kitten or Halfbreed.

( Clyde )

I SO WON!

I remain victorious as always.

I guess purple won.